[June 25 2009] *sigh*

Moonlight shining through the dark clouds,
every bit reflects a memory of you.
strewn across an endless maze,
your gentle words linger in my ears.
you left without saying goodbye,
tears fell but i learned to hold it back.
your silhouette slowly fading away,
and i felt joy.

for once i learned to love myself,
to appreciate who i am and to be myself.
i tried to change who i am,
just for you to accept me.
my friends were there to support,
to tell me to move on and let you go.
i did, i did it well,
and slowly, you were gone.

you became a fragment in a broken mirror,
strewn across the floor.
lost in every inch of the cold, dark, pavements of my mind,
you were there, lost, cold, forgotten.
then the sun shone on me,
you reflected light in the recesses of my mind.
after months and months,
your fragments slowly picked themselves up and made you whole.

you talked to me with your gentle voice,
you looked at me with your calm eyes.
then i was there, standing,
standing in front of you not knowing what to say.
i do not know what to feel,
'cause i have forgotten that feeling a long time ago.

here i am, slowly picking up the broken fragments,
of feelings i used to feel for you.
i'm confused, i dunno what to feel,
i dunno if i should still love you.
all i know, is i miss you..

'cause i loved you before,
but you let me go.

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*sigh* what should i feel?:(